“I’ve tried committing suicide. But I didn’t, look at me now.”
Mathieu told FOX Sports Southwest that he ended up removing the words because, “I didn’t think it would go viral,” he said.
“I think the biggest thing is to be open about it,” he said Tuesday after the first day of Cardinals minicamp at the team’s practice complex. “Part of it is reaching out to others trying to help; part of it is self-counseling, talking about it, not shying away from it. Most people try to isolate themselves and pretend like things are all good when a lot of times, that’s not how it is.”
The breaking point for Mathieu came as he sat in a jail after police searched his apartment and found marijuana during what would have been his third college season. Mathieu had already been kicked off LSU’s football team for failing multiple drugs tests, and he felt his life and dreams crumbling beneath him.
“I’m sitting in that jail cell thinking, ‘I don’t know if I want to go back out there and face the music,’ ” he said. “I didn’t know how I was going to commit suicide in the cell, but that was the direction my life was heading.”
Mathieu says is cellmates encouraged him.
“Believe it or not, my cellmates were encouraging me, telling me I was a good football player; telling me I don’t need to be thinking about this,” Mathieu said. “That’s probably why I really didn’t do it, but there was an actual moment where I was thinking about, and I’ll never forget that feeling.”
Now Mathieu is a young up and coming NFL corner.